I shouldn't be here ...

I shouldn't be here.  I was this kid who always seemed off from the rest of the pack. Maybe it was being younger than everyone else, maybe it was being different, or maybe it was me just feeling more separated from everyone; when in reality I was just like everyone else, alone in a crowd.  I knew I had to do more.I knew I could do more.  I knew I was better ...

Am I arrogant? Yes ... definitively.

Am I self conscious?  Isn't that the root of arrogance?

So I shouldn't be here.

I'm relatively successful, fairly well liked, have good friends, family and an exciting life in most respects.  I'm not a millionaire, famous, or even really that exceptional in an upper-middle class kind of way.  But none of this was supposed to happen. Where I'm at, what I do, who I became ... just never thought it was me.

I'm here quite literally by several accidents of fate, or acts of providence depending on your preference.  Here is Scottsdale Arizona and periodically Louisville Kentucky. I am by trade a Workforce Manager, not the most interesting gig in the world to most but for me it's a passion.  Not something I would normally want to do, but sometimes the best fit comes from trying on something you thought was the wrong size.

I am from Louisville, Kentucky, my education  is in psychology, and I am not a math guy.  So the journey to where I am and where I may be going, sticks in my head a lot, so why not write about it?  Why not blog on it?  If no one reads it but me ... the sheer expression and outlet will have served it's purpose.

This will be the story of how the awkward kid grew into something else no one thought he would be.